Tilly

Making it a list and postdated, so that it HAUNTS ME until I write the things on it. It was originally a text file, but that's easier to ignore.

Someday I'll also add a master list to this to cover older fics pre-list, but my wordpress tags will have to do for now. They're partially sorted, so things like Series: Foo and Genre: Bar will all be together.

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So today I went to pack up some Zoids, and it turned into packing a few Zoids and clean a large chunk of room.

I don't use my bed (I like couches better, okay), so for...seven years or so it's been "pile stuff on here" land. I found, among other things:
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Not only is Riesegeno a glorious blue, it has two shades of purple (more regular Geno purple for the underbits and a more blue one for the markings/vents), the caps and teeth are metallic silver rather than more grey (not chrome, more a color I think might be painted? Like on the pistons), and and and there are three colors of clear bits.

clear for the eye visors and stuff, blue for the eyes and such, and for the projectors (not missile pods any more, if they ever were beyond reused animation models? I can't remember) on the hips more clear blue and also CLEAR PINK

yesssss hahaha pink, pink and so many flavors of glorious blue/purple

Pilot Riese is also wearing the catsuit, but that's okay because the other Riese isn't. She and Hiltz also come with tiny stands, have the pilots done that before?

I want to build it but am going to make myself wait until I catch up on the huge backlog of messages I owe people. Lordy, I am so sorry about my communication lately.

Masculine styles and colors + women's cut/sizes? Fairly easy to find.
Feminine styles and colors + men's cut/sizes? Ha ha, no.

Have I mentioned lately how sick I am of masculine = neutral and the idea that to look androgynous I have to look like a dude? Because birth assignment must always be both destiny and direction.

Now that I finally can wear more fitted things I want clothes I actually like. And women's clothes have all the cool patterns/colors, but are cut in ways that never have fit me and really don't now. Men's stuff, if I can actually find it in my size, fits...but it's in boring colors/patterns most of the time (other than t-shirts, and I have enough of those), and if there's pink on anything it's usually Acceptable Manly Dress Shirt Pink. And heaven forbid we have anything pretty or with glitter or other things with GIRLY COOTIES.

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Crossposting here, in case anyone not on Tumblr is interested/someone wants to reply here instead.

Momo did a Zoids fan anthology a ways back.

Would anyone be interested in contributing to a second one? (edit) With me running it this time, so send any questions my way!

It'd be pretty much open other than a few logical restrictions (as the actual [e]book/PDF type thing will be all ages), so don't worry about any judgment of skill level or how active you are in the fandom or anything else so long as whatever you'd send would be to your own personal standards of "this is work I have done and am proud of". Photography and customs and so on would be welcome too, not just fic and art, and you could submit more than one piece (within reason).

After some time spent spreading info around, I'd want to give people at least a few months to get stuff done. Probably more three or four, though I don't want to wait too long either, as I may finally have something resembling a concrete date for moving and don't want to be trying to put a book together in the middle of that.

But for now, I'm just gaging interest. Please only say you'd contribute if you're reasonably sure you can—I know stuff comes up, I just don't want to get a ton of interest and then hardly any actual stuff. That would be sad.

As usual I am captain hidey/invisible, buuuut I now have a Skype account under pointytilly (naturally).

I'm using the Pidgin plugin and thus just the text chats, but since that seems to be more big than AIM these days, I thought it might be handy.

For Valentine's Day, I got...

...the power button not working right on my Galaxy Tab. Sometimes it works, sometimes not, sometimes it acts like I'm pressing it when it's not, aaaand either way I can't shut down to do a proper restart, it just loops back to the boot screen and brings me back to my current session while chirping at me because it thinks the battery's fully charged (it's not) and I need to unplug my charger (that's not plugged in). My music player also doesn't work, it just randomly displays a bunch of song titles while playing none of them.

I'm not very functional right now, so tablet = large chunk of how I stay connected to anything/can do anything at all. Hooray.

I also can't post this to LJ without using LogJam because the new entry page hates me and I need to go report that but I can't brain. Haha. Hah.

(edit) Okay, got tablet mostly working, buuuut the battery indicator seems to be very confused, and it still won't shut off—if I try to power it down, it restarts. I rarely turn my tablet off, so that's at least...functional, if a bit creepy. (Maybe I should rename it Al, since it now can't sleep.) I hope it stays functional.

I'll also try running the battery down all the way, maybe, and see if that resets whatever's confused it. Netflix marathon time?

If anyone else has had a Tab or other Android thing you can't easily debattery get stuck like this, advice is welcome D:.

I've been sleeping badly lately and having odd dreams; the most recent one I can recall Older dream now. It was one of those very typical (at least for me) "something bad is trying to get inside" scenarios, unremarkable except for one odd detail.

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Despite textbook UTI symptoms, I do not appear to have one, even with a longer culture and all that. So where is/was the low-grade fever coming from? It may be something separate from the bladder issues, which I've had bouts of before. With my luck those are going to be one of those nebulous low-level impossible to pin down things—I already know about interstitial cystitis (oh, Wikipedia-hopping), but that's diagnosis of exclusion and ugh I don't even want to think about trying to find a urologist and playing eliminate the possible other issues right now.

Body, why can't you just give me an error message in words?

UTI symptoms before a weekend, so far cranberry isn't helping. Looks like it's drink ALL the water over the weekend time and hope that I don't have to play "which antibiotic can I even tolerate" when I can get into the doctor. Pretty much every antibiotic under the sun makes me varying degrees of nastily ill, so I'm reaaaaally hoping it'll go away.

Body, stop failing. I want to get things done!

I still have three test printing Zoids postcards that need homes, if you don't mind I'll be slow and probably draw birds on it. Two Sabre ones, and a Battle Rover that is cool but printed a little dark/close to the edges.

Rather than just "testing", another gender post.

From what I can remember, it took a while for no uterus/no blood and pain to sink in as the norm. Not so much the idea of gone, but gone as the normal default state. Now, I often forget it was ever there–oh, wait, I used to have that and do that.

I think boobs are starting to hit that point.

Sometimes I get frustrated that nobody told me this was (presumably) how bodies are meant to feel. That is, something you might be frustrated with, but can still actually connect to and have register as yours. Well meaning people tried to tell me not to hate being a girl because sexism (good message, bad assumption), or lol puberty, don't worry, everyone is a bit weirded out (just like everyone is a bit autistic, not). The school system, instead of looking for actual pain sources there and in autistic issues, was more concerned with calling me lazy and blaming me for my own breakdowns, though I can only imagine how their incompetent asses would have dealt with this.

Maybe it's better I didn't know.

Would I be broken now? Or would I have jumped through all the proper hoops for that sort of freak (because if you're autistic, you learn fast to obey and fake your way through acceptible patterns or else, and I would have been desperate and confused and if someone twists this into supporting gatekeeping rather than education I will be Very Cross) and be staring the same things down as someone who ~became a guy~ and was now lost because that didn't fit either?

I really don't know. I just sometimes wonder what I might have been. Not for too long, because I like who I am more.

I went to check my old notes file re: when I'd started T, which I thought was last February. It was actually last January (the 13th). Whoops. I didn't bother to take progress pictures proper, but I should get together at least a comparison thing thanks to my webcam pictures. The effect is more dramatic than I thought.

Really, I think I'd forget my own birthday if it didn't get used on so much ID and forms.

Four things I noticed:

The intro to my note reminds older me to keep track of OCD changes too, but scoffs at the idea T would help. So, older me, about the massive reduction in most of its more disturbing counterparts...

I still had more of a monthly up and down at first. I've since completely forgotten what that even felt like, though I kinda miss the highs of it. Don't miss the lows, though. At all.

I was already getting the better emotional/functional stuff only a few weeks in and on a low dose, though like I remember lower actually felt weird that way, like it was better but still stuck not right. That was likely the ovaries still trying to stay in charge.

I gave up keeping daily notes right about when I hit the dose I'm on now. That's pretty telling as to its working well, and also my lack of focus in general. Sigh.

I bet you thought I forgot. NOPE, I was just being lazy about formatting and finishing one of them.

More? Other fandoms? Maybe, send me stuff! Again, no promises, but I'll try. This gets me to actually write more :p.

Wolff and Prozen, for Plink (AO3) Sorry that's mostly Wolff. There's some bits of fanbook I want to get more familiar with before I try them together familylike! Though if I'd had more words, it would have actually had Prozen worrying about him/exploding the Saurer as parallel. Future companion drabble someday?

Mach Storm and video games, for Adlas (AO3)

Blake and Luke with typos, for Jammer (AO3)

Another Luke one (AO3) for my SO.

Plus a bonus one for the new year, aka the reason for the "reasons I am going to fandom hell" tag (aka har har, innuendo/boner jokes). Helic and Rosa, getting interrupted again (AO3).

Yes, I finally wrote something to go with this picture. Forgive the bad photo, I'll try and scan some of the book someday if I can do it without ruining the binding.

A wild CC box set appeared!

Blu-ray and Japanese/with a limited HMM model, so you're looking at 500+ USD. Going to probably borrow discs off someone in exchange for helping out with the cost because yeah no :/.

I'm not holding my breath for English subs. IT'D BE NICE but I doubt it. I'd be happy enough if it got closed captions! I wonder if we'll get /Zero. Also not holding my breath for Fuzors.

(edit) As spotted by Sylvan and Hanyoutai at ZP (speaking of which, Mishbott spotted the set on Amazon.co.jp first):

http://www.amiami.com/top/detail/detail?gcode=MED-DVD2-18855
http://www.amazon.co.jp/dp/B00B17I0IU
Limited edition with the Liger model
http://www.amiami.com/top/detail/detail?gcode=MED-DVD2-18856
http://www.amazon.co.jp/dp/B00B17I1KW
Regular edition

This is two stories in a row involving kid characters and bugs (however briefly), which is...really unintentional. I wrote them years apart. The tone is also um, a bit different this is FotNS we don't do happy, so please heed the warnings (in particular, discussion of/nonexplicit flashback to rape) if you're expecting harmless fluff like the kid fic with Hermann.

Anniversary (AO3)
Mamiya hates birthdays, and Airi attempts to change that.

Also fic-related: Give me Zoids drabble requests? (you can, of course, comment here instead)

Water strider (AO3)

Kid Hermann tries to cheer his mother up as she tries to deal with post-meteor issues.

I should see what else I can salvage out of that stalled fic. There's bits and pieces of it I really liked, even if I never did get the plot to properly plot and it would involve way too much politics to ever finish. Writing politics is terrifying, okay.

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AmiAmi - Hobbysearch - HLJ

Comes with Riese, Specular, and for some reason Ambient and (standing only) Hiltz.

If someone who doesn't want the whole kit wants to buy the Ambient and Hiltz off me, I'd be open to that. Because owww is this thing going to be expensive after shipping. aaaand claimed

I DON'T EVEN LIKE THE HMM GENO SAURER and I'm flailing so much. I also snagged a mostly to entirely complete (hard to tell until I have it in-hand) OER Cyberdon really cheap off eBay, so that's all the Gorheckses. The only thing that could make me even more excited merchwise would be a History of Zoids reprinting :p.

The first I can remember involved me trying to garden, and getting unreasonably angry with my mom for trashing some of the plants. Apparently everything in the yard was coated with a layer of radiation/radioactive dust/something from some kind of disaster (yet we were fine!) and you couldn't eat things grown in it. I was particularly adamant about a project to grow really a lot of venus flytraps, and I can't remember why. ( They were really important venus flytraps, plus further trapped places and (sometimes) escaping adventuresCollapse )

I got mad at the size and brokenness of my MediaWiki install, so I started working on this to replace it:

http://www.pointytilly.net/zoids/bswikitest/

As you can see by some of it, I have no idea what I'm doing. But it's more lightweight and it seems to be working, so I'll figure it out as I go along. If I can get it to display better, I suspect I'll really like the categories setup it has.

Once I work out image uploads (which is part of what broke on MediaWiki), I should use this as reason to finally scan a lot of my stuff.

And if anyone knows how to make the category listings and All Pages' links NotDisplayLikeThis, you will be my hero :p.

The geek in me is increasingly convinced Riese's name was meant to be Liese. It fits the pronunciation (in Japanese) better than the "Reese" variants, and, well, Zoids has a serious thing for German.

But I'm so used to spelling it with an R, and that's more identifiable to people used to the Reese/Rhys/etc spellings in English Zoids fandom.

At least "Reese" is a real name like "Zeke" (should have been Sieg—Tomy didn't get that one right either, what with the Zeekdober), unlike "Flyheight" (instead of Freiheit) or shooooebaltz "Schubaltz" (instead of Schwarz), or the mess that is the Desert Arcobaleno Gang and their once-Italian-colors.

But but...German. I already use Sieg rather than Zeke/Zeek because I can't stand that (or Flyheight or Schubaltz sdlkfjslkdfjsdfffff) and am probably gonna go with Weiß Wolf rather than Whitz if I ever write that Fuzors fic.

Which do I use, aaah. (And then there's the Fine versus Fiona thing when Fine was a Meaningful Name...)

(edit) Speak of the devil, and they appear. More specifically, no proper pics yet (just an illustration), but HMM Riesegeno. I don't like the HMM Geno and I don't care, because I need that one.

Why am I so terrible at writing body language and nonverbal human interaction in general?

And I need to be working on more draft and not revising things this much but I want to post this fic before I hate it, and even if I were to give up and want to post it as-is it has no title.

"Cake is not the only thing that matters" is far too goofy for the subject matter, brain.

Arrrrrgh.

Do Not Touch The Birds (AO3)

Because the universe needed Souther/Iwamine Shuu.

I think Bad Behavior has finally (mostly) smote the really persistent spambots that have been all over my fic archive's comment section lately. This pleases me, because there's only so many comments about NFL jerseys and Ugg boots one can find in Akismet's spam queue before it gets more annoying than silly. (I always check the spam queue for legit comments, because every so often...)

Okay, I laughed at the one selling testosterone that somehow managed to miss the trans fic the other bot loves (to the tune of several hundred attempts at spamcoating it in NFL jerseys etc) and land in the one entirely about a cis lady. YOU TRIED, BOT.

If you try it on a Wordpress install, get a key for the http:BL thing too. It works much better that way.

Does anyone have a need for some 200-pin (that is, laptop-sized) DDR2 667 MHz RAM? I replaced Luke's 1-gig sticks with 2-gig sticks, and I now have two 1-gig sticks of RAM lying around unused.

If you pay for shipping and are patient about me sending them, they're yours as-is. I mean, they worked when I took them out and have been sitting in the plastic case the new RAM came in since, but just in case, as-is.

(Please check it's the right stuff for your machine, though! Luke is older, if your computer isn't older too it probably isn't. Though I think a lot of netbooks use[d?] it too.)